Part One -- Why?
Don't you ever get tired of yourself? You want to take a vacation and leave 'her' behind for a bit? A few hours, a few days. It isn't like I wouldn't come back, I just want to get away from me.
I want to get away from over-thinking, under-thinking, and just-right thinking. Away from the reflective substance on the lining of my brain that keeps the same thoughts bouncing around, back and forth over and over, like a pinball that hits a bonus ring.
Ping. Ping. Ping. Ping ping ping pa-ping.
I want to get away from my own sighs, my breathing, my skin, my eyes,. I want to see the world from a fresh new perspective of someone else's skin. It is the opposite of "Cheers". I want to go where "not anybody knows my name." Oblivion? No. Anonymity is a better word. No one knows me. I'm just me. I can be anyone.
Sometimes I want to get away from my goals, my fatigue, my boring bad habits, my lack of resolve. I spend a lot of time letting life happen. Flow. Chill. No worries. No aim. No fire. Too much fire.
I also get stressed out and overcome. How can I be bored and overwhelmed in the same mind, body and soul? How do I get away from myself?
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